dari sekolah menengah lg,saya dah biasa jadi org yang bersendirian,memang saya ada kawan baik mcm wani(i love u wani,tibe2 rindu plak) bobo husna aisyah nashirah masa form 4 gg tshy ramai ramai sangat
selalunya berdua je dgn wani,ke mana2 pun,punye lah penyabar minah ni kan(cz i know susah nk jge hati afiqahnordin yg complicated nih)
bila kt matriks,still satu matriks dgn wani,tp lain blok,blok kitorg jauh so,jrg jumpe
tp still duduk dlm dewan kuliah same2 sebab satu kuliah
itupun kalau xbergaduh,kn wani
kitorg ni sgt selalu gaduh,aku dh kata wani ni penyabar
masa sem 1 matriks,aku gi makan sorg,ke mana2 pun biasanya sorg lah,kalau mkn tghri tu kalau x dgn wani,sorg lah
mungkin sebab aku ada bf so,i didnt feel alone,ive always have sumone i can turn too(hafiz ni pun jenis manusia penyabar jugak)
hafiZ lah org yg kalau aku marah,aku boleh ckp terang2 dgn dia,dgn org lain aku lebih suka pendam,n diam n nagis kt hafiz,tq hafiz
kalau dgn wani kitorg tukar2 surat,xpun mesej haha..dua-dua xreti nak luah perasaan depan,even kitorg rapat sangat,kalau terpegang tgn wani,aku still rasa pelik,rasa mcm lesbian hahah
bila dah sem2 matriks baru pandai nak buat kawan,ada munsab hannah shahirah halimah maz raihanah dorg bdak praktikal,ada nanad biha and piah budak bilik aku(sebenarny bilik dpn tp nanad xsuka aku kata kitorg xsatu bilik,truth is aku lebih suka aku bgtaw org kitorg xsatu bilik,tp kitorg rapat mcm satu bilik,huh rindu)
and sekarang kt uni pulak,ada lah kwn2 mcm faiz hasif aini jem miral cady eh ramai2 mira
mostly sebab satu course satu lab dulu,mira sbb rummate
itu pun rapat bila dh sem2.sem 1 awkward2 lg sikit..aku xpndai berkawan rapat,i mean how do i suppose to do?im jot a nice happy go lucky person,boleh tegur2 org dengan girang gembira pada pertemuan pertama malah kedua pun xreti lg
sampai kau hidup berbulan dgn aku baru aku buka sikit lah minda dan nurani nak kenal hati budi
aku admit,aku x buka diri untuk orang lain,i let myself judge people terus,hafz marah betul,tp nk wat cmne dah aku mcm tu
ok at first td guna saya,mcm mne leh tukar aku pulak ni
memang seronok,ada kawan2,mmg rasa meriah sungguh,gelak2 have fun,(but oooh xseronok betul kalau kawan jenis kawan masa happy masa susah x k tolong)
the point is(or are) when i let people come in my life,i tend to get hurt when they behve the way they dont suppose to
it sucks,it really is
i tried to sabar and all but if its keep going,i felt like going to the old afiqahnordin who doesnt care about people,and just study and dating,but ot sometimes get pretty lonely,and sucks too
if anybody ever feel like "poyo je afiqah,padahal kau pun bukan seorang kawan yg pun,kdg2 pun kau buat aku sakit hati" right now..
my advice is "could u please stop!!and listen what i want to say??!!" and then i'd like to add bitch,but i will not say it out loud,bcz its rude
and if u are my friend,and u feel like u 've done something wrong,culd u please say sorry,and pamper me a while,i know im being childish,who cares,i wanted to get rid of feeling of hating u this much,cause it sucks and i love u and i love my friends
note the s in the friends,coz theres so
many people hurting me this time at this second,
and if ive done anything wrong ever to u all, so sorry,i may not realize it or do it on purpose,i still sorry,and give me a hint,that ive done wrong,okay
adios
