atas roda

hey,me(well im assuming no body still read my blog,hee)


well,tiada apa benda best pun yg terjadi.tapi akan terjadi bi iznillah,later lah kita cerita,k.benda2 tak pasti ni malu nak cerita awal2.


well,saja update blog.macam kereta lama xstart kan,kalau lama sangat xstart engine balik,takut rosak kan.


recently,i could feel life been better.not that life was worse previously,its just....i was so stressed, trying so hard dieting, tahan makan..jogging like everyday,kalau x jog buat heavy senam robik. i was trying really hard to be thinner..
evrytime lalu depan cermin tgok waist and hip circumference.compare dgn org2 lain yg slim.compare dengan pakwe sendiri..pstu mencarut dalam hati bila timbang2,weyh asal berat tak turun...!#$(*^


but now,i feel better about myself,feeling more confidence,feeling healthier.


it all started since like a month or so ago, I started exercising..dulu 2minggu tu jogging lah gigih.tapi penat and costy menyusahkan orang kena naik kereta pergi Taman Rakyat. bayangkan,jogging penat2 sume muscle ache bagai,nak ward round study lg bagai,tapi berat tak turun. stamina pun tak naik mana pun.mengah gak naik tangga 3 tingkat tu.macam pehalllll.......


untill....i joined my colleagues main volleyball dekat asrama..i have always love to play volley,tapi ingat simpan interest dalam hati..watch kalau ada sukma ke sea game kan,sebab xde sape main pun before nii...sekali dah main,hah kau bgun pukul 6 pagi dah xsabar nak tunggu pukul 5 petang.dalam kepala macam volley,volley,volley.adalah peluh sedikit sebanyak..stamina pun dah boleh tahan lah.naik 2 3 kali 3 tingkat tu baru semput.alhamdulillah.


and also i determine i would never care about my weight ever again,it just ruin my mood, my relationship with others..yelah badmood hari2 sebab stress. i determine to do what i like to do..persetankan sama itu berat badan die nak turun die punye pasal.hafiz pun dah stop sebut pasal gemuk kurus, and there was once, he said


"awak cantik,been always"


sape tak terharu.eh lantak lah die tipu ke tak.at least die ada effort nak tipu,korang ado?ha?..haha xemo...


and now dah boleh pakai baju lama,tak tahulah memang dah kurus atau mata buta sebenarnya ketat tapi tak terima hakikat wahaha


and it kinda affect my studies,as being confidence is extremely important in my school routine. saya dah tak menyorok macam dulu lagi..hooray


alhamdulillah..thus the title i am now atas roda..tapi hati dan berjaga2 bila roda nak berpusing..nanti kalau korang nampak post emo2 tu hahh maksudnya roda dah berpusing lah tu.


bye,assalamualaikum.