suddenly teringat pulak zaman sekolah dulu.there was a night where the exco's seniors gathered us,the naive juniors in the masjid.then,we were asked to luahkan perasaan kalau ada yang tak puas hti ke hape kn.

i couldnt really remember ape yg org lain ceritakan.ah,ape sgtlah masalah budak form 2 ada pun,merepek je kalau tak silap.well,i was busy watching someone..haha tersenyum sorang2 pulak bile teringt cerita ni.there was this senior i have my eyes on.n well that didnt go well,im not freaking beautiful anyway.aku xrugi pun xdapat kau lahhh is what i'd like to say to him today.

then suddenly,my name was called,oh oh.theres someone xpuashati dgn aku ke kn.well you all thought oh mmg patut pun fiqah@leng ni mmg suke cri gaduh dgn org pun.hihi too bad,that was not the case.

turn out,there was this guy,telling me he likes me.haha naive little boy,in my head was de fak,why are we talking about this,why is this senior dont just stop this nonsense.sgt ridiculous gile.if that guy read this,im sorry i tell people this.well,u liked me before bcz ada org kata aku suka kau kn,well that misunderstanding buat kau misunderstood.well anyway,

saje je cerita sbbnye something's happen tonight and im thinking if that session is really necessary for my friends now.and also im thinking if this kind of thing necessary for me and this someone.well,org ini xde confess benda merepek ni derr,betollah ape yg korg pk tu.i messed up.tp xnmpk cara nak betolkan sbb ego tinggi sgt.ok,dh lega boleh tido.

there's a point in your life when you get tired of fixing everything and trying to make everyone happy. when you finally decide to quit.its not giving up. it's realizing you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring in your life.

i am happy i am not a shadow anymore. :)

guys,please stop hurting other people.whether intentinally or not.

u'll not just hurt others,u will hurt urselves.well,i promise u.i speak thru my experience.

memanglah skrg kau xde kaitan dgn die,mcm mne nt kau satu kelas dgn die.mcm mne tibe2 kau dgn die satu hospital then HO satu ward..kn awkward gile jdnye.

lg2 kalau org tu xbersalah.ouch,the awkwardness boleh terasa sampai ke tulang hitam, you know,ur bone freaking marrow.

xyah jauh lah,cane lepas kau post benda yg mnyakitkn hati org,then terserempak lah pulak kt car park ke mana ke,i can imagined that since i ve been there

arilah jgn menambah musuh,musuh yg sedia ada tu cukup2lah.

then, kalau he was a friend then he is now ur enemy*there is no particular reason i use he*

marilah org itu menghayati lagu recent jamal n ultimate eh?

aku maafkan kamu,xperlu kita bertemu cukup kau tahu

yang aku maafkan kamu,tolong teruskan hidup jangan kau sebut nama ku.

oh my,awkwardness hingga ke metacarpal and metatarsal.

tua dahhh

it has been so longgg since a man said this words to me

"hai nak berkenalan boleh?"

last time was when i was in matric,and i thought that its funny people at my age (that time i was 18/19?) still kacau girls mcm tu..

kalau masa umur2 15 16 17 tu boleh lah nk giggle kegembiraan kn,seronok lah konon ada org nk kenal..kalau dlm bilik pndg muka kt cermin pstu sengih sbb xsangka muka mcm ni ada org nk kcu kn..

then masa matric dulu rasa mcm aku bini org then ad org mint then rasa kelakar,gelak terbahak2..

maaflah kwn2,aku matang cepat..aku dh tahu minat org since primary school okeyh..walaupuin itu cinta monyet but still sape je yg tahu bercinta masa tu?i bet most of my friends masa tu blur2 je,sibuk dgn doraemon lg..oh mmg,aku mmg xsuke doraemon since umur drjh 4.sebab rasa mcm nk ckp kt nobita "u r so lazy" and ckp dkt doraemon "u r not funny selalu buat muka sush hti,xcomel ok" ..then selalu wonder siape sizuka suka,siape yg akn end up dgn sizuka..yep,thats me..

then,umur dh 21..pergh sebenarnye mude je lg,tapi entah lah,rasa mcm tua sgt..sbb i hv been in a relationship for 4 years,rasa mcm eh cukup tua lah dlm cintan cintun ni..dh lapuk..dah nk proses ke kahwin dh pun..

and bile org ckp nk kenal,i annoyed!huh!ape kejadahnye.mengapa berasa begitu?
i was thinking,adakah mereka ingt aku single cz im not that beautiful so somebody recommend aku kt kwn2 dorg?

he loves me at my worst..he is the sweetest guy i know.

pernah tak jadi kat korg,korg marah kat seseorg ni,then dia ni tahu korg mrh kt die,tp ingt kn pasal benda lain.i meant dorg ingt korg mrh sbb other reason yg sgt unreasonable.

contohlah kn,org ni cantik juga langsing tapi die ter tak sengaja kata kau gemuk.then,kau terasa.kau mcm jd rpt kt die tibe2,mcm merajuk lah kn.
makanya,dia berasa pelik dan wonder.hurmmmm kenapa agaknya org tu marah kt kite eh??then korg dgn baik hatinye memberi hint,korg cakap dgn die,yelah kite kn gemuk,tak mcm die
kn..alah2 muka sedih jugak kn

pastu pastu,org tu,ingt korg marah kt die sbb die ada ckp berat die turun 15kg minggu lepas.

geram tak dgn org mcm ni.1st,die x jaga hati kwn2,ckp sedap mulut je,xpenahlah pk kawan ni low self esteem,karang ckp lebih2 terus jd stress.lepas tu,org mcm ni jenis yg self-centered!pling mnykitkan hati lah.org tgh mrjuk ni,bukn nak masukkn diri dlm kasut org tu,tapi still lg memuji diri sendiri.iyelah,dan2 org tgh skit hti pun sibuk duk pk pasal benda yg die dh achieved,hanya pk yg baik2 aje dlm diri die.

come on lah people,ayuhlah jga hati kawan,hati manusia,ke haiwan ke,pokok2.mcm mne kalau sumone tu terasa,then,die kata aku xakan maafkan die,smpai bile2.kt akhirat nt mcm mne?mcm mne kau nk crik balik org yg kau skitkn hti die tu,dkt padang mahsyar dlm kalangan org yg dr zaman adam sampai lah beribu tahun tu..uuuhhh jenuh tu.

lama betul terpendam benda ni dlam hati,akhirnye terluah juga.aku tak kisah kalau diri sendiri yg kena,tp bile tgok org lain pun terasa jugak dgn org tu,tp org tu still xperasan lg,rase mcm nk goncang2 je bdn die.wake up!!wake up!!sush sgt ke nk perasan.

n people.while u reading this,jgn lah kite duk pk,uih betol ni,ada tu si A(nama sebenar) buat cmni kat aku..fikirlah,entah2 kite pun buat cmni kt si B C dan E,gud for u if org tu buat xkish n maafkn kau org each n every time,but if satu persahabatan tu renggang sbb benda cmni..sayang dohhh..n now u know u y ive been different lately :).its not like i dun want b friend with u,its just its so difficult not to hv heartache with u around,i miss u though :'(

lu langsing lu mati

ugh jeles gilak dgn manusia2 perempuan yg langsing.